Archive for January, 2010

Week 10: Still More Fussiness

January 27, 2010

He’s now 2 months and 6 days old so he’s really only been home for 6 weeks. Somehow it feels like it’s been a long time. Today, we brought him back to KK hospital for his eye review again and he passed the test! It’s not a test exactly but I just feel like every examination is a checklist of things to check off to reassure me that he’ll grow just like any normal full term baby. His cranial ultrasound was normal as well so this is a great relief. So now, he only has a regular review in 2 months time with the PD at KKH. The last visit, he was still anemic and had jaundice, though I’m not sure if the anemia is due to the possibility that he has thalassemia minor just like Johnny.

He’s been a fussy baby every evening from 8pm all the way till 12 midnight. He’ll cry unless carried and refuse to fall asleep. It’s a bit of a struggle and quite tiring to have to carry him around. And by carry around, I mean walking around while hopping/swaying/patting him. He’ll get upset if you sit down while carrying him and most of the time, even if he falls asleep in our arms, he’ll wake up once you put him down. I think my arms muscles are definitely improving but I won’t be surprised if I suffer from carpal tunnel instead.

I’ve tried putting him in the baby carrier but the weather’s been hot recently so he continues to struggle inside. He seems to really sensitive to heat so we’ve resorted to turning on the aircon every night. Today, perhaps because of the eye examination where the doctor had him held down and his eyes pried open, he’s been extra fussy even in the afternoon. Perhaps that is his “revenge” for letting him suffer and cry his little heart out=[ Let’s hope that it means he’ll sleep better tonight.

I was reading through the forums and most babies around his age are already sleeping through the night or at least longer hours. Premature babies apparently take longer to do that. So looks like we won’t get any reprieve from having panda eyes any time soon. I certainly hope that by March when Johnny has to go for reservist, his sleeping habits will improve or I will probably drop dead for those two weeks >_<

26 Jan - Oops, I did it Again

You No Take my Pacifier!

January 20, 2010

Recently, we introduced the pacifier to him as he’s been fussing more and more and sometimes just inconsolable. He’ll exihibit signs of wanting to suckle for comfort but since I can’t latch (not from want of trying) we decided to buy him a pacifier. We’ve read that it might not be good for teeth development if it’s used for a prolonged period so we’re planning to wean him off after 6 months or before 1 year old. By then he would hopefully be easier to take care of so I won’t be too tired to comfort him when he fusses. Right now, I’m constantly fighting sleep deprivation so it’s a blessing that he really takes to the Nuk pacifier that we bought. It was also a great help yesterday when he went for the cranial ultrasound and they needed him to be still.

Recently, he’s been showing more control of his limbs. Since I didn’t want him to be too dependent on the pacifier, I’ve been trying to take it from him after a few minutes and a few times, he actually used his hand to hold the pacifier in place! This picture was taken yesterday, can really see that his face is all rounded out now!

Don't take my pacifier!

Week 9: Sumo Baby!

January 19, 2010

Just came back from the hospital after his cranial ultrasound and to see the PD. As usual, KK is not the most efficient hospital and had us running around from 9:20am till 1:20pm. He had some mild bleeding in the brain at birth but thank goodness the latest ultrasound was normal.

And guess who’s been putting on lots of meat! He’s now 4kg and 50cm. According to the health booklet, he’s at the 97th percentile for his height. Does that mean that he’s obese now? =_=; Grow taller, baby, grow taller. The PD said he had good weight gain so it’s probably fine. I guess he was a little small to begin with and his weight gain will probably slow down from here. I certainly hope so or I might have to consider putting him on a diet!

I wonder if all parents feel the same way but when I look at other people’s kids I can’t help but think they are just not as cute as my Calvin! Haha! We’re definitely overindulgent parents. Then again his grandparents spoil him as well, always carrying him at the slightest whimper…

DINK-hood vs Parenthood

January 12, 2010

Recently, both of us have separately wondered if we would have preferred to stay childless. Baby Calvin can be such a handful at times especially when he starts to cry and nothing you do can placate him. It makes you feel so helpless. Then there are the many 3am nights when he refuses to sleep and just wants to be carried around. The past few nights seem to have worn out Johnny and traumatized him enough that he commented today that he won’t want to have a second kid.

Maybe I’ve been relying too much on him when he is home. It’s definitely tiring for him to work during the day and then come back to more work – feeding/bathing/washing etc. On the other hand, if I had to do all the work taking care of baby 24 by 7, I’d probably go mad or more likely, depressed. We’re definitely both stretched a little thin recently and I’m looking forward to the time when Calvin can sleep through the night and is more interactive. As it is, most of his awake hours involves him crying for something – food, a fresh diaper or a warm cuddle and his crying face really leaves much to be desired. This is an old picture but his goblin face is definitely still the same =)¬† I wish he would smile more often!

Parenthood is not an easy task. Apart from the physical challenge of taking care of him, there are also many worries like whether they will grow up well and finances are definitely high on the worry list. Lest anyone thinks otherwise, we love baby Calvin very, very much. Just a simple sweet smile is enough to make us think that it’s all worth it. I can just imagine that Johnny will have a really great time playing with him when he’s older.

In contrast though, I can definitely see the allure of remaining as a Double-Income-No-Kids household. It’s an easy lifestyle and there’s much less responsibility. In the past 4 years of working, we’ve enjoyed traveling on a whim and going out for dinner was not a major logistical operation (more like impossibility at this point). Since I’m also working, there’s a lot more money to go around. Now with a baby, I’m contemplating being a stay at home mum.

Maybe it’s partly because we’re exclusively taking of Calvin on our own. The maid helps us with his laundry and cook my meals but otherwise, our baby son is solely our responsibility. I just don’t trust anyone enough to take care of him.

Anyway, the whole debate in my mind is moot because we have our cute baby son in our arms now and I don’t regret having him at all. I’m also wondering if I’ll have the energy and will power to have #2. I’ll leave that for us to decide in another 2 years time. Probably by then the memories of the first few painful months will be dimmed by time and the other joys of parenthood. =)

First Adventure for Calvin and I

January 7, 2010

Today is the first time I ever went out with Calvin by myself. I had a post-natal gynae visit at KKH and Johnny is busy with work. Anyway, it was actually just a cab ride there, see my gynae and a cab ride back. Sounds simple enough to handle, but it was tiring all the same.

I started preparing to go out about 40 minutes before but it was still a mad rush to finish feeding him and also to pump out some milk for his feed later. I left the house at 11:30am and got there just in time for my 12pm appointment. However, there was a backlog of patients. After 15 mins, a nurse appeared and told us that the gynae had to handle a delivery! I finally got to see him at around 1pm. I pity my gynae as well. His day is so jam packed with patients and deliveries.

By the time I got home, it was 2pm and once again time for Calvin’s next feed. After feeding him and again pumping to avoid engorgement, I finally sat down to have lunch at 2:45pm. At least he didn’t poop and fuss lots when we were out. I was all prepared and brought diapers, towel, wet wipes and a change of clothes. It seems that going out is no longer as simple as just grabbing my wallet and keys…