Archive for November, 2010

Another Great Fall :(

November 30, 2010

Calvin had a big fall this morning from his cot. He’s become really adept at pulling himself to stand everywhere, including his cot. So when his papa was getting his milk ready in the other room, he stood up and climbed over and fell off. The poor guy was wailing. This is one of greatest heights he has fallen off. So far, he seems to be ok. Still active and chatty, though a bit whiny today. So we’ve lowered his cot to the lowest setting now but it’s hard to put him to sleep though since he’s reverted back to needing to be carried before falling asleep. Now, we’re trying to let him sleep on the mattress on the floor instead.

He’s been diligently practicing his pull-to-stand skills so I’m kept busy the whole day just trying to keep an eye on him so he won’t fall and hurt himself. It’s getting really tiring and I’m afraid I’ll go insane. I have no time to even prepare his food/milk or go to the loo, not to mention have some breathing space for myself. When I’m pumping and have to leave him inside his exersaucer (the only truly safe place), he gets really upset to be stuck inside. I’ve been so busy running after him that I haven’t had the time or energy to update this blog.

Not to mention, he’s been difficult to feed as well coz his upper teeth are coming out so his appetite has been pretty bad lately.  Sometimes I get frustrated and raise my voice at him, railing, ranting and sometimes even crying. I instantly feel a pang of regret though he doesn’t seem to realize what’s going on. He’s just a little baby after all. At those times, I feel like I’m the worst mummy in the world. Being a parent is just really tough. Being all isolated and having no one to talk to isn’t really helping either.

Baby Calvin Is 1!

November 22, 2010

It was his birthday yesterday. As you may know, we’re not the kind who celebrates special occasions so we didn’t plan some big bash like I see so many parents doing. After all, he won’t even know what’s going on. My father in law bought a cake for him. Calvin was so upset when the adults all gathered around him and started singing ‘Happy Birthday’. In his mind, he was probably thinking ‘ What the hey is going on here?’

Maybe he does know that it was a special day coz he was squealing loudly almost the whole day. He also had his first shopping cart ride and seemed fairly ok with it.

He also loves to read/ be read to. His all time favorite is still Maisy. It’s a shame most of the Maisy books are not in board book form. He’s now an expert page turner but he’s still a bit grabby so paper pages still suffer from creases and the occasional tear. I’ve started leaving soft books in his cot and play area. Yesterday, he woke up from his afternoon nap and was happily reading his book while muttering to himself all the way.

He’s such a little monkey who likes to climb up anything. If he sees a pillow or a pack of diapers or his mummy and daddy lying on the floor, he’ll try his utmost to clamber over them instead of going around.  He can even climb up the stairs a bit. Haha I’m using that as physical activity to tire him out.

He’s been sleeping better recently after I decided to drop his last nap. He’s been able to stay up for longer hours so for the past week, he’ll wake up from his afternoon nap at 4pm and then by 8/9pm, he’ll be totally pooped out and ready to hit the sack. Somehow that seemed to have helped curb his frequent night wakings. Not that he’s not waking up at all but it’s more manageable now. His daddy is doing a good job taking care of him at night while his mama sleeps on the couch with ear plugs on >.< He’ll probably continue to wake up for a while more. Maybe if he switched to formula milk he will sleep better. Then again, he can probably start on whole cow’s milk soon, which I personally feel tastes much better than powdered milk.

I’m still pumping 6 times a day though I’m trying to drop at least the middle of the night pump now. Yes, I’ve been waking up at the ungodly hour of 4am every night. Can you imagine that I’ve done that for a year now? But that one will have to stop since I’m going back to work soon. I’ll probably try to continue pumping out whatever I can even when I start work. This guy still loves breastmilk more than anything else, though he’s a bit more receptive of this other brand of FM I’ve occasionally spiked his normal milk with. I’ve needed to supplement a bit for the past 2 months since his appetite has been increasing.

I would have liked to give him more solids but he’s just not into taking any more than what I’m giving him. His favorite food is still yoghurt so I’ve been giving him one meal of that every day. He can finish a 500ml tub of yoghurt with 2-3 jars of fruit puree every week. His other meal is still a bit of a headache though he surprised me by being quite receptive to my failed oatmeal with salmon porridge. (That just turned out to be a big gooey mess…)

I hope he had a fun time yesterday. He woke up later in the middle of the night than usual this morning — 4:45am is certainly a record for him! And that’s with only 100ml of milk before his bed time instead of his usual 160ml. I’m not counting on him repeating his performance. We’re happy enough that he wakes up just for food and not be in his inconsolable wailing phase.

Running Out of Ideas

November 7, 2010

Man, it’s tough to think up new things for him to eat these days. I tried brown rice porridge today but he made a very confused and upset face. I guess firstly because he has only really eaten chilled food (not my choice, he just refuse to have anything to do with warm or room temperature food…) and secondly, it’s much lumpier than what I usually feed him. He’s been quite receptive to small bits of lumpy food recently (rice, puffs, small chunks of mango, chunks of watermelon, baby biscotti) that I was getting optimistic about him accepting porridge.  Alas, despite him surprising me at how good he is at feeding himself finger food, porridge was still a no go. I guess I’ll try it again, maybe with a more watery texture next time.

Maybe I’m just tired but I find it hard to think of ways to entertain him sometimes. Especially since he is now up for longer periods. Sometimes, I feel that he is bored with being at home so we’ve been bringing him out the past few days to let him look around. His stranger anxiety seems to have improved slightly. He’s now ok with the maid carrying him for a while, granted it’s still not something she does on a regular basis. She’s busy enough with household chores anyway. Plus I’m a possessive mum. Though I have to say I’m somewhat looking forward to going back to work and taking a break from being a stay at home mum for a while.


Random Update at 5am

November 3, 2010

Phew, after giving him lots of fluids, he seemed to have shaken off the cold after one day.

We brought him to the playground at Kallang again. This time there were very few kids around, so we could safely put him down to crawl around without risking him getting trampled. Most of the time, he was still just chilling out and taking in the new environment. While I went off to Cold Storage to pick up some things, apparently a little girl came over and ‘flirted’ with him – touching her nose to his and giving him a hug (though it ended up as a head squeeze coz he was that much smaller than her). Apparently, he didn’t seem to have really minded. So either he was just totally stunned to speechlessness or his stranger anxiety doesn’t apply to kids (or at least little girls)


He’s now a little amateur cruiser. He still has a bad habit of leaning his upper body over to wherever he wants to go before his feet will follow. So I hover around him anxiously, trying to catch him in case he falls and hits his head. This guy obviously knows no fear. The other day he tried to crawl off the bed without even hesitating when he reached the edge. He just continued crawling into space. His papa was right there to catch him of course. He’s still not quite skilled at pulling himself to stand though. Most of the time, he can probably just get on his knees.


Looks like he’s finally opening up to taking more solids. Now I can manage to feed him about 2/3 of a jar of baby food before he’s had enough. He seems to really enjoy the taste of beef stock. He’s one strange baby…well, whatever rocks his boat. As long as he’s eating, I’m happy. Yesterday, I tried to give him some rice grains from my finger while I was having lunch. To my surprise, he actually ate it and was keen to try more. He’s still fussy about the texture of food that I feed him though. Maybe it was because the rice was in very small quantities. Or maybe he just enjoyed being a big boy, eating from the same plate as his mummy. Looks like I have something else to occupy him while we have our meals. Whee!


It’s been a real joy taking care of him now that he’s more mobile. He’s a lot more contented though still quite clingy and needs lots of attention. At least it’s not as mind numbing and tiring as having to carry him around aimlessly.

I’ve been supplementing him with some formula milk recently even though my supply is still sufficient to satisfy his daily needs. I’m thinking of dragging the time between pumps again. Especially the one in the wee hours. When I start work, I’ll really need the extra hours of sleep since I can’t nap during the day. Currently, I’m still pumping 6 times daily so hopefully I can drop the middle of the night pump and eventually move on to 4 times when I start work. Not sure when I’ll totally quit my cow-ing career, guess I’ll just keep going until I can’t take it any more 🙂